Maybe if i wanted to commit suicide, i just want to be in a happier place. I wanna be with god. I have made my choice in life and asked for forgiveness. Its not selfish at all. Family and friends are ignorant of the fact that you are in a better place. Pain and sorrow is a fleshy need. Sounds to me like the family and friends are selfish for not being happy their loved one is happy now. A Time of death (when its the proper time) should be celebrated. You wont go to hell by killing your self. Thats stupid. If you know you have your faith in God and know he is our Saviour, and want t be with him, and your flesh life is horrible, then well you know Heaven is a better place so why not be there?