****ty...if car wrecks and old age dont get em suicide does. i had a ex girlfreind commit suicide, and have had numerous ppl die in car wrecks...over-all ****ty but you will get over it. i cant imagine what someone is going through that is bad enough that you wanna kill yourself but it cant be changed now. and if there were no signs then you have to accept that there was nothing you could do anyways. i know what you are going through.