I try not to think about death, and instead focus on the thoughts about life. But I know that when I die, my body will decompose and that there is no afterlife. My mind will return to the state it was before it existed in the first place. People who think life is meaningless are misguided. Life is what you make of it while you're alive. The only eternal life that exists are in the memories of the living, whether your life was spent doing good or evil. Albert Einstein, an atheist, will be remembered forever due to his contributions he made to society while he was alive. Adolf Hitler, a theist, will be remembered forever due to his actions.
But the fact remains that you are not 100% sure what comes after death...correct?

This is why I absolutely reject the Judeo-Christian god. According to the bible, no matter how many women I rape, no matter how many people I kill, as long as I repent, he will forgive my transgressions and I will be accepted into the kingdom of heaven. However, if I fall in love with another man or think for myself, I'll burn in hell for all eternity.

If there are a bunch of rapists and murderers in heaven and a bunch of my friends and other atheists in hell, I think I'd take my chances in hell
Repentance is more than saying im sorry. God searches the hearts of man not the outward appearance. When a man or woman comes to a revelation of Jesus and what He did, they realize their faults and the wrong they have done, confess and ask for forgiveness and then honestly try to not commit the same trespasses....that man/woman is forgiven. God knows who is honest about repentance and who isn't. I have asked forgiveness for things i did that i really didn't feel bad about, then at times i cried and pleaded with God to forgive me for other things. God knows what was in my heart. With your own backround in christianity, im sure you knew very well who was sincere and who wasn't.