your idea of well-adjusted is kinda skewed streethazard, even amongst those who dont believe. what i have come to understand about you is that its not your unbelief that is the problem, its your rebellious spirit against what you know is truth. you just simply dont want to obey or listen to the Lord. are you trying to get His attention for something? is this your cry out to Jesus to get Him to notice you? it almost seems like your a 2 year old acting up so daddy gives you some attention, even if its a good ole' fashioned whoopin