Hey bro, it must be in our water. I just noticed you are from G-ville. I am from Oakwood here. 5 min away if that. I know what you mean. I got the voices and seeing shit too. Never took any xanax, pills, meds, any of that shit. Never believed in that. It is all created in our head so we MUST have the capabilities to control it. If our minds are as out there as they are (you know what I mean), then we must have the solution in there as well. Just gotta figure it out. I'm trying to do it now. My only problem is.... the exact opposite though. When I am extremely low and feel like I have everything against me, I don't become suicidal. I become homicidal. I went to Laurelwood a few times for it. I seriously have to lock myself in my room to keep people away from me. I don't own any guns for that ONE reason. I used to have a knife fetish, but now if I was to do anything, I'd rather just use my own hands. But I am hoping for the best. I hope the shit goes away and I hope I find the solution. That is why I am moving to FL with my Fiance to start over new. I just hope it doesn't affect my job like it has in the past.