haha i bet. nah i just prefer to keep on trying to make it in this world. i am a person that believes in what i can see, touch, and hear. its hard to prove otherwise to me anything without that. now i didn't want attention. someone said they thought me. i gave my explanation and a reason. if i wanted attention about it would of told everyone the day i failed... i didnt you know why? because i am ashamed of myself for trying it again... i said i never would. but i was overwhelmed with emotion and to caught up in the moment. i couldn't deal with it all hitting me at once. you try being forced out of the only home you ever knew just because your family wanted money to blow on their drugs and alcohol.. tell me then how it feels... you see you loved ones things being sold away for drug money... tell me then.. you see everything you ever believe in crumble before you.. then tell me, i should believe in a God? how if God was so caring and loving, he would of been back by now to end this shit hole we call Earth... until i can talk to God face to face.. i will always carry my doubts...