Beaten during childhood was doable but being sent to the crawling space with the camel crickets and addic during mid summer or deprived of eating was harsh punishment. Its been a over decade since my then alci paps went ape ****, but even my mom that had my back when he went crazy on me cracked down and said I couldnt even be a mail man in life because I wouldnt be able to read the street signs. This is 5th grade, ****ing 5th grade. Far aswell paps saying I aint gonna be anything never was anything. All that **** just made me become worse, eventualy as a 4ft child started smoking cigs in 5th grade, weed in 6th grade, acid and coke by 7th grade. Felon at 15, being expelled within the first 3 weeks of HS and eventually dropping out of HS after the 3rd time in 9th grade. Long story short my then lifestyle brought me to jail several times before I realized, **** them this is my life, Im gonna prove them wrong. Got out of jail, got a Ged, got into college, got a year or so left after 6 years, but my plan is to be a millionaire before I leave school. Either way, my dad over all the years cant look at me while talking to me. Once he quite drinking after his 2nd DUI I guess he woke up and realized he ****ed up, and is now just a shameful old man. Either way, no mater what they say or what they do. It does not mean **** if you got the strength to not let it put you down.