man i feel you man.. me i graduated number 2 in my class of about 1300 seniors.. i moved here because i wanted to get the hell outta columbia and my pops.. dont get me wrong i'm street as fuck but pops is ex military retired 25 years.. i couldn't do shit unless i was done with school.. and he checked up on me like hell man.. he didnt care about nothing else i did but school.. no sports or nothing if my grades werent right.. did i get academic scholarships yes in columbia.. but here i got nothing and i didnt care i just wanted to get out.. my motivation to do better was her to tell you the truth.. like i wanted to be the best for her.. so i could help her out.. finacially and mentally ya dig.. but i dont have a job because school was my man thing.. pops helped out and what not but not having any doe to spend on her when i wanted affected me alot because well.. who wants a man with no ends... but i don tknow man. i just don't feel up to anything.. i was gonna make some money to go to nopi and stuff. i dont even want to go anymore.. i havent been out the house in 2 days man.. no need to go anywhere