you want to see the effects of a decaying body - i call that morbid.

don't worry - my sister and mom are right there with you. when i saw a guy get hit by a car - all they wanted to do was play with the body....they are weird as shit. they would like to see the decaying stuff too - to me - once the person is dead, i don't want to see it again - i can't even look at bodies at a viewing - creeps me out.