you are making it a bigger thing than it is.

People die all the time, I've seen mulitple people killed before my eyes.....

unless deep down you know that there was some way that you couldve helped or some how changed the way the events unfolded, it's life.

Life is taken for granted everyday.....the way I see it...everyone has a time and a place....some sooner than others.

I dont know if you are religious or religious prefrence....but if you died today, would you be able to stand at the gates of St Peter's and know you lived a full life and you did your best to live a good life?

The more you mull over it will accomplish nothing....it will just stay in your mind longer. He probably didnt feel much pain, because if he had that much alcohol in his system and he wasnt screaming in pure agony....he was most likely killed after the intial impact and what they suspected was him still being alive was just the rest of his system shutting down...but I suspect he was probably already gone from the first hit.

never in your life do you want to experince someone screaming in pain in their last moments of life, that kind of shit is what sticks with you......

you need to just stop visualizing and just hope that he did live his life to the fullest and lived a good life, and is ultimately in a better place.