Quote Originally Posted by fawk_you
Thank you. :sigh of relief: Seriously though, I dont know what to do. Im freaking out about it- I dont know how I was able to drive home... how I was able to talk to the cop- the shit didnt hit me until I came home... I sat down, heard the sound of the guy hitting- OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.... it wont go away.... I cant sleep-- and cant stop crying... even tho some shit on IA has been funny this morning... I cant stop... I just hope one day this gets better..
Yea, I know how that is all too well. I can still remember the sound perfectly, and I can still see it in my head. I keep hoping that this case will go to trial so I can put it behind me, but it still hasn't. It will be hard and eventually you will be able to go a day without thinking about it, but then like I said, you will see or hear something at some point and it will bring it all back. For example, after it happened for me, I thought I was over it, but then I went and saw Bad Boys 2 and they have the scenes with the bodies coming out of the van, etc. and I lost it. Things will happen that will bring it all back up fresh in your mind, but just try to think of the positive things. I kinda feel like I saw all that happen for a reason, like I was supposed to be there. Maybe it was so I could keep the driver from leaving, something like that. It will be hard, but I know you can pull through it. It just takes time. Good luck though, and again, let me know if you need anything.