Yeah the past 2 weeks I have really tried to get back to who I was and start to enjoy life again, and yeah I have been doing good with that, even though I think about her a million times a day, I know she would hate me hurting all the time, so for her and for my sanity I have tried to get back into life again, but as the holidays come and I face it without her, It kind of knocks me back down a bit.... But I will get up and dust myself off and continue to fight to live this life everyday. I owe that to her