I cant even imagine how hard that has to be for you brett and I am so sorry. But the last few weeks I have been on here on and off and I have noticed just over IA that you have gotten yourself together and tried to take the next step and stay positive and upbeat......thats alot harder than most people think...I know Id be a mess!! But you know Leisa WILL be with you tomorrow...tryin to comfort you and letting you know that she still wants you to do all those same things! I think you should still decorate and keep the tradition alive! Maybe it will bring you some peace and comfort