Guys, tonight Leisa was moved back to Northside due to she developed a staff infection in her blood which they think now has consumed her body. She has a 103 degree fever and they are pretty sure she has no brain activity and the neurologist will be in tomorrow to run a few tests to confirm it, but most things are showing this is the case.
At this point this means she is alive in the ventilator but she is gone. Within the next day or two I will have to ask them to turn off the ventilator and hol dher in my arms so she is not alone when she takes her last breath, which since she has no brain activity she wouldnt last minutes.
I am trying to understand why her, why are we all left to live a life without her. She has touched my life and so many lives and I wish I could tell you all the prayers worked, but my baby just wasnt strong enough and I think the first few nights she put up the fight of her life but that wore her down and she just didnt have anything left to give.
The only thing that I find very odd is this morning I woke up around 5am, and then fell back asleep and I then had a dream that I was walking with her in a building somewhere and she was telling me she was okay, that she is all better now and is fine. Then this all happens today, I in my heart believe that was Leisa who came to me and told me she is okay now and she knew I would tell everyone what she said. So if they confirm tomorrow that she is brain dead, I will per her wish I will let her go tomorrow night or Wednesday.
Please pray she has no more pain and that we all can make it through this.