Today is the day I was dreading.

Tonight I will have to go and see my friend for the final time and some how come up with the strength to say good bye and let him know how in so many ways he affected my life and how I enjoyed the ride with him. John... I just dont know how to begin to tell you how much you will be missed. I keep asking myself what if you would have left the mountain 30 seconds sooner or later, What if we got the rain Sunday instead of Saturday.... There are so many "What If's" I keep playing in my head and all come back to the same thing, You were taken from us and I dont know how we all will get through this. Tonight we will need your presence to help us and most of all Arlene through this. We are going to be there for her, we will all take care of her for you.