i want to start by saying thankyou to maniac and baby j for your condolences. i really appreciate it. its funny but im not actually grieving. she lived a long happy life and left behind a great legacy. we will remember how she lived not how she died. once again thankyou both.

now to answer a few things. yes the machines being there was a miracle i guess you can say...but the true miracle is that after two hours she was brought back. i believe God saw us and heard our prayers and gave us atleast enough time with her to hear us and to say our goodbyes.

and as far as the suffering in this world and what not. i have done some studying and reading and i came upon a book titled " investigating christian evidences- a study course" by Bert Thompson, Ph.D and Brad Harrub, Ph.D In chapter 4 pgs. 111-113 they explained that those who dont believe in God have two common reasons why they dont believe. 1. "real intellectual obstacles" meaning their intellect refuses to believe in creating something from nothing, virgin birth, walking on water, ect...who consider believing in God on par with believing in the tooth fairy or santa claus. or 2. they simply dont want to believe in a transendent God cuz its bothersome or not convenient to them. then you have those that say if God is real then why is there evil, suffering, pain, loss, ect...and if He is all loving then He either doesnt have the power to stop it and isnt all powerful or He has the ability to stop it and is all powerful but chooses not to and is therefor not all loving. here is my answer to this. FREE WILL and NATURAL LAWS. the child that is prostituted and is a drug addict, that was not their choice but some adult that took advantage of them and used the innocent child. so in this case that adult chose to impose His will on that child. therefor that adult is evil, not God. and God does not interfere because that child will have the opportunity to be in a place with no more pain, suffering,ect and pure eternal happiness. the innocent lives that died in that tsunami a few years ago would represent natural law. they live in a region where there are earthquakes and tsunamis would be a result of that. with natural law if you jump off a building thats 15 stories tall gravity makes you fall and when you hit the ground you die, when you step out in front of a bus in motion guess what that object will remain in motion. natural laws...on september 11, 2001 those arib men took it into their own hands (free will) and fly those planes into a building full of innocent unsuspecting lives. natural states that the consequence of running a plane into a building means destruction. so who is evil here? God or the men that decided to put it into their hands to take those lives?

i keep hearing the non believer arguements about not believing in God and the ones with faith trying to defend something we ourselves don fully comprehend. and all this leads to is the same old thing a stalemate where believers keep believing and non believers keep doing their own thing. i say that we try a new approach, instead of trying to prove our beliefs with evidence why not instead try to understand and comprehend where each side is coming from. let us take the time to put aside our arguements and instead try to learn from one another? after all are we not all just trying to seek more knowledge in the end?