Quote Originally Posted by Alex11
Things never seemed to flow nicely for me, I used to pray as a child.. yeah I did. I was rasied as a catholic, so I always thought life would be something that was full of happiness and that evil was nothing but a word. I learned the hard way, that not a single thing church taught me was true. I remember praying for a certain thing, almost every night as a child. I would sometimes even cry, that desire of mine. Never came, so I stopped. I learned that if you want something, you have to work for it and earn it yourself. God has never done anything for me, nothing that could be considered a gift of the lord.
You keeping saying the same thing over and over again. I can't wait to see how you react to the new inventions human kind will be coming up with in the future, we will be able to bring back the dead. Of course if they've only been gone for a certain time. We will live longer, will know alot more than we do now. We will reach a stage were religion would be nothing more than a memory.
Alex, I'm sorry that things happened the way they did for you brother. I know its hard to pray and feel like your prayers never get answered but we have to remember that we can't control God and He doesn't control us. It sounds like you have been hurt and I wish it was something that i could do to reverse that! I just want you to know this - God is not God because of what he can give us - He is God because He is... I know that it probably doesn't make much sense but, I'm trying to say : we can't just call him God if he gives us everything we want. We have to call him God and know that we may never know why He does what He does. Brother I know that some where in your heart you remember God being there for you, whether is was in your prayers as a child or even just having that feeling that you can't explain. Think back and don't let the worries and messed up things of the world let you forget about the God that accepted you just as you were, asking nothing else of you at the time but that you believe in him. He has already touched you and once you have been touched by God - You may run away but he never lets you go... Its not to late to come back home brother. God Bless. (I hope that all makes some kind of sense, I'm sorry - i got a little emotional listening to what you wrote)