check yourself into a clinic,or move. im sure you have a circle of friends who do the same things as you pills and drugs and so on.so when you try to quit they are still doing it.i think your an addict and you need professional help. stop hangin out with idiots and doing stupid things.you need to admit to yourself you have a problem and do something about it.i also think your right to drive should be revoked and i hate to sound harsh,wait no i dont. but i hope they nail you with every possible charge they can, that could be the motivation you need to clean yourself up.you did the crime be a man and do the time. good luck