So I think me and the girlfriend may actually be splitting up soon. My fault too.

The thing is, I love my girlfriend and I do feel happy with her. Yet, at the same time, I'm just not happy with the way my life is going. All I do is work, come home for a few hours, and go to sleep. Everyday it's the same thing. I spend my money on rent, car payments, insurance, and little sh*t here and there to keep me entertained. That's really about it. Life is just so boring right now that I can't stand it.

Reflecting back, I constantly look back at when I was almost set to leave for my trip. God I wanted to leave and now I'm feeling that same way again. Much like then, I think that my girlfriend is the primary thing that's keeping me here in the US. On one hand, I want to stay here with her but, on the other, I want to drop everything and finally leave on this trip.

I'm really torn and I'm not sure if I can be content here or not anymore. Anyone got any words of wisdom or advice? Sorry for the emo-ish spill.