Quote Originally Posted by DnBmama05
you're right scrappy... i mean sometimes i wonder 'what would i be doing now' or 'what was life like before when i could sleep all day and do whatever i wanted'... but it's really weird because i can't imagine what life would be like without having my son... for a looong time i wasn't ENJOYING motherhood the way i felt like i should, but i think i expected to feel differently than i did - i'm sure post partum had a pretty big effect as far as that goes. my friends that had kids were always talking about how much they LOVE being mothers and i just didn't know if i felt that way - but a few of them weren't being mothers... their moms were taking care of their kids and they came around when they felt like being a parent... so then i understood. i just wanted to stick that in there because i know a lot of women that have babies go through the same thing i went through.
there could be alot i would say along with this but keeping it off the "internet" and hiding it inside of my mind. but yes this baby will be with me and not my mom considering i have been on my own for so long anyways. I have already started changing what i do so that its not a huge instant challenge and change when the baby is born. but the ones that rely on others to take the "mother" initiative... want to smack them sometimes.