you're right scrappy... i mean sometimes i wonder 'what would i be doing now' or 'what was life like before when i could sleep all day and do whatever i wanted'... but it's really weird because i can't imagine what life would be like without having my son... for a looong time i wasn't ENJOYING motherhood the way i felt like i should, but i think i expected to feel differently than i did - i'm sure post partum had a pretty big effect as far as that goes. my friends that had kids were always talking about how much they LOVE being mothers and i just didn't know if i felt that way - but a few of them weren't being mothers... their moms were taking care of their kids and they came around when they felt like being a parent... so then i understood. i just wanted to stick that in there because i know a lot of women that have babies go through the same thing i went through.