So Im getting divorced

[bodhi]

Bad thing is like I said she is already going to a party at her girlfriends house Saturday night and I cant keep from dwelling on how much drinking she will do and when she does if she will end up hooking up with some guy just because she is free now (We havent even filed for divorce yet since she just blind sided me with this Friday night) but I cant help but think non stop how at some point, another man will be with her, and that is what is killing me, I get into panic attacks when I am out because everything I am doing I realize I will never do with her again.

Starting over YET again at 39 now is going to be hard. I dont know how I will get through this or emotionally get to the point where I do not wonder what she is doing, But if I can get there I would be so much better, next Saturday night thats ALL I will be thinking about.

Wish I still lived in GA to see alot of you guys, I miss you all. I had to cut off many of my friends (Okay all of them) because she didnt like the people I hung out with, since they were all single and car guys, she assumed they would be bad influences on me, and now she is leaving, has a few friends and starting over this week while I am left with no one to spend time with to keep my mind off things.

I have cried for 2 days straight and she hasnt shed a single tear, but she wanted this so for her I guess its easier.

ouch, bitch is already going out and getting wasted to the point where some random guy (not hassan) can just come in and whisper some nice words into her ear like "it's gonna be ok, here have another drink" then boom - she's hooked and you two are really done.
not only does it suck that she convinced you to leave georgia because you hangout with fast & the furious people, but she clearly doesn't givva fuck.

you've been crying not like a man, but like a little teenage bitch... no seriously brett - i don't know you in a personal level but you are. TWO FUCKIN' DAYS???! i hope you're exaggerating


sure you know how it feels to lose the love of your life (rip leisa) so that alone should've made you stronger to NEVER shed a tear for another bitch who isn't feeling you anymore
i feel sorry for you because like you said, you're 39 years old, it's not like you can hop in your car and start club hopping with yer boys - in hopes that some ditchpig will open her legs for you. gah it sucks that one day i will be old too!
at the end of the day, there's really nothing ANYONE here can say to you that will make you feel better. we'd all need to be telling you this in person for you to really get what we're saying; which is to STOP crying and to show her that you're okay with what's happened. you will move on, and you will continue to be the jolly goofy dude that you've always been.

[Brett]

Well when I say crying for 2 days Im not saying 24/7, But I have over the past few days hit spots in the day where I break down especially if I am talking to someone about it. Its easier said than done to not cry over this, I love her and it kills me even more to imagine what will take place this weekend and how she doesnt even seem to care what this has done to me. Like I said, makes me feel I am disposable ya know