and you are right, I think when Leisa passed away I was so hurt, so lost and the first person I latched on to because I was just so afraid of being alone. We should have dated for a while first. When I lost Leisa, it destroyed me and my whole world, I was searching for that quick fix to the pain I was in. I will not be looking to date anyone for a while. I need to discover who I am and what I want. Sad thing is like I said, I let all my friends in GA go for her, because she didnt like them, and that was so stupid of me and I owe everyone an apology for that.

When she came today to get all her clothes she talked and treated me like I was nothing to her, that hurt me even worse. I gave her the world and loved her and treated her DAMN GOOD and she is acting like I chose this and has so much anger torwards me now. Its insane.