It's a hard time , before I had 3 guys I rode with all the time.Mike,Bill,Jonathan.Bill killed himself about year ago due to he had cancer and was about to die and had other problems so he couldn't take it.And then Mike, and now my brother!!!!

I feel like I am drowning!

I have everyone you can think of call me but I can not talk it is hard! I send text easier then actually talking so I been doing that , but it is soooooo hard to deal with this.I have seen final destination and all the other ones and I feel like something is chasing me , that is my reason for giving up riding for good.

PLEASE the ones that choose to ride still please be safe and tell everyone you love everyday you love them, because anything can happen.Have your ducks in a row and ready so if something happens you have it lined up .I wished I was able to tell him I loved him before this happen But I know he knows I do, hell I spent days and nights with him so much it was like we was married!