Look. I am someone that relys on meds to get through day to day life. Since it seems to be a brain problem, meds are likely the only thing that will help with that. Perhaps a therapist will to but that is expensive. Dont be afraid of medication. Not all of them change who you are. But stay off Klonopin. That shit made me a zombie. In case you were wondering, I am diagnosed with Tourettes Syndrome and without meds, I am walking ticcing time bomb, with meds People dont even realize I have it most of the time. I'm just trying to say that meds can do GREAT things to improve your quality of life. Give it a shot at least once when you talk to your doctor. If it doesnt help then simply stop taking them. I guess what I am trying to say is, What have you got to loose? I am only making this response not in trying to push you to take meds since I know you dont like them, but it's worth considering as an option. Just my 2 cents...