Brett you are doing great, keep your head up and whenever you feel down and need to post a thread then do it, who cares what anyone else thinks, and if they don't like it then they can click the X just like you said. You have all of us to talk to whenever you need to get something off your chest. It may seem like she didn't know you were there or isn't here now, but she knew you were there, she knew how much you cared, she just couldn't respond, but she tried by fighting for so long. She will always watch over you and will always love you. Enjoy life and always remember her and look back at all the good times you had with her, it will help you smile.