Brett, she heard you man...she knew you were there... and she knew that you were her best friend and love, and in the end, that will never change.

She's still with you, in your heart, and I know she watches you every day. You have to remember her and live your life and make her proud of you and your actions.

And if the situation was reversed and she had lost you, she'd be making the same type of threads and talking to people...reaching out to those who knew you and loved you, which is exactly what you're doing and should do.

I think Tracy is right. Finding some people who have been through this or are going through it will help you more than you know.

Much love man.