I'm not constantly fearing that I might die-- I don't have any regrets, and I've done the best I can so far and I'm happy with who I am.

However, I do not look forward to dying, for two reasons: first, I hate missing out on things and I know that on my deathbed (if I'm lucky to die so comfortably) I'll be thinking of the future, and wonder what I'm not going to get to see happen.

Second, I don't like leaving people I care about unattended for; I feel like, if something bad has to happen in life, I can handle it-- I can carry the burden, endure the pain; I don't want it to fall on the people I care about. When I'm on the way out, it will hurt not to be able to play that role any longer, to protect people.

I don't think I'm scared of death exactly, but I sure as hell don't want to go through it (not that many people do). I'm zero percent religious, so I believe that I've only got so many days before my number comes up-- I just don't want to go.