Some kid offed himself online today

[quickdodge®]

I don't know anything about your life, or his. So I can't really compare the two. But sometimes people just can't find the strength to pull through their problems anymore. Regardless of whether or not you agree with how the kid handled things, you should always have respect for the dead. We all gotta go sometime, death is the one sure thing life. I have respect for the kid, and I hope people will do the same for me when it's my time to go.

I haven't been to the lowest of lows, but I can take a good guess that I've ran into much harder times than he has. I mean at 19, he really didn't have time to have a fucked up life so bad that he had to kill himself. I spent two years living, literally, on Buford Hwy and Peachtree St. No home. No roof. No food. No money. Nothing but my clothes. There's more that would make his life seem like a cakewalk, but I won't get into that. From my understanding, he (parents) was rich. He went to really good schools. Seems, from reading things, that his complaints were very trivial and a very stupid reason to put your family through such heartache. People don't like me? The fuck kind of reasoning is that to kill yourself? I love this girl but she doesn't return the feeling? Come on?

You and I are straight cool and shit, but I gotta disagree with you 100%. I have no respect for people who take themselves out. Later, QD.

[Friggintitsman]

I don't know anything about your life, or his. So I can't really compare the two. But sometimes people just can't find the strength to pull through their problems anymore. Regardless of whether or not you agree with how the kid handled things, you should always have respect for the dead. We all gotta go sometime, death is the one sure thing life. I have respect for the kid, and I hope people will do the same for me when it's my time to go.

You know what fuck that.
You go to combat and see and do the shit I've done. You get bombed and shot at almost every day. You try waking up in middle of the night and see someone standing over you about with a knife about to stab you to death only to blink and and realize they were never there. Try seeing people you know die. Try working long days only to get off of work to a cold meal and a even colder shower. On top of all that your girlfriend is at home fucking your best friend. Try hoping every day that next IED takes your life so that you don't have to live to see the next day. Yeah I lived it. Let this poor schmuck walk a mile in those shoes and tell me his problems were so bad. Not a day went by I didn't think about killing myself, but I didn't. Yes I wanted to die, but not by my own hands. I would never go out like that.

Sorry to go off like that, but now maybe you can see why I have no sympathy. Weakness is all it is. It's those kinds of hardships that make you stronger. If you can't survive adolescence then you really maybe suicide isn't such a bad option, because life doens't get any easier as you get older.

[OneSlow5pt0]

You know what fuck that.
You go to combat and see and do the shit I've done. You get bombed and shot at almost every day. You try waking up in middle of the night and see someone standing over you about with a knife about to stab you to death only to blink and and realize they were never there. Try seeing people you know die. Try working long days only to get off of work to a cold meal and a even colder shower. On top of all that your girlfriend is at home fucking your best friend. Try hoping every day that next IED takes your life so that you don't have to live to see the next day. Yeah I lived it. Let this poor schmuck walk a mile in those shoes and tell me his problems were so bad. Not a day went by I didn't think about killing myself, but I didn't. Yes I wanted to die, but not by my own hands. I would never go out like that.

Sorry to go off like that, but now maybe you can see why I have no sympathy. Weakness is all it is. It's those kinds of hardships that make you stronger. If you can't survive adolescence then you really maybe suicide isn't such a bad option, because life doens't get any easier as you get older.

agreed much so,i have not had a easy life,but i never complain bout anything,i think its made me into the person i am today...and a stronger person as u said,sometimes i wonder if i do anything different,now i dont blame anyone or anything,well im not religious so ofcourse i blame no "higher" power.

because of al lthis,i never get mad at people,i never hold grudges,or any of that because life is to short and ive expericed how fast it can be lost 1st hand,so i value everyday i wake up

[ahmonrah]

Some of us may have. Me for example. I've probably walked more than a mile in his shoes. Later, QD.

yep. i can agree with that one whole heartedly. but the inability to give up is strength. seen and been through enough in a lifetime to make some people fuckin nuts. but quiting on life? not an option...

[osnap]

fucking sad.

[FlipKing]

Ehh, I usually take the family's view more b-c my brother's gf commited suicide. Fuck the selfish bitches. I had to go back to that house and watch my brother see the fan she hung herself from for the first time. I had to watch him try to tear the fan out of the ceiling. I had to hear stories about how my nephew went to her work a week later and ran around the store calling her name b-c he handnt seen her and missed her. FUCK people that commit suicide and do that to their families.

[americanctm]

very sad... not much else to say

[alpine_aw11]

The guy may have been a failure/douchebag, but it's never good to see something like this happen. Sucks for his family and friends(if he had any) if anything. I would never put the people I'm close to through that no matter how big of a piece of shit I became.

[thecrazyone]

shit just got REAL!

[Papa_Smurf]

i wanna see said video.

[Buttons]

I'm not sure if this is right, but i thought you shit yourself when you die? I watching a movie and what not. I don't know, lol.

internet is serious business. poor kid.

[SiRed94]

I'm surprised nobody on IA has pulled this stunt yet.

[OneSlow5pt0]

I'm surprised nobody on IA has pulled this stunt yet.

keyword

[Barefoot]

fuck i missed it

[§treet_§peed]

i'm going to counseling now so i don't try to OD again...flame me if you want but atleast im trying to do better now

[SicStang03]

Original thread by deceased:
http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showth...hp?t=112065561

Guy who knows him:
http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showth...hp?t=112077871

Background info:
http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showth...hp?t=112077641

Video:
http://www.justin.tv/clip/7b928d510bb0eb7c


Search those threads for myspace links ect...

[§treet_§peed]

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm...ndid=206599326

[§treet_§peed]

there i posted it that is his and apparently according from everything i read he really did kick the bucket. and another thing i gathered from looking thru his myspace he was fairly wealthy

[PRiMAdonna]

i dont get why his roommates or the person who video recorded that didnt call the police? isnt that illegal? they just sat there for 8 hours while he died? i dont get it.

[SicStang03]

i dont get why his roommates or the person who video recorded that didnt call the police? isnt that illegal? they just sat there for 8 hours while he died? i dont get it.

Nobody sat there and recorded it. He had his webcam record it through some website to feed it live.

That song playing on his myspace is a Christian song. Out of everything I have gathered, he doesn't seem to be the type to off himself.

Here is his last blog entry on Myspace:

I’ve finally gotten closuer

I can honestly say I've finally closed a chapter in my life that tonight that ended a long time ago. For my closest friends you know who exactly I'm talking about, but I guess it really does take that last kiss goodbye till you finally turn your back on someone and not even think of looking back.


I also want to take time to apologize to those "fillers" that took a chance with me, God knows you all deserve a medal for even attempting to put up with half my bullshit.
So I liked to thank all of you, Erika (I know I lied to you and played with you, my fault), Aylessa (I know I treated you worst then dirt something, yet you were always there when I told you something was wrong), Mayra (I know you don't totally forgive me, but thats okay, your still there when I need someone to text at 2 in the morning), Fredericka (With you it seems like I lost something really golden, hell you know my mom is constantly asking me when I'm going to talk to you again, my family really does love you, and I know at the moment you probably still hate me but yeah I see where I did you wrong.
)

This part goes out to Juan and Esfania, my BFFsizzle and future (but not anytime soon) wife.
Juan your my best friend but in a totally hetro way your sorta my hero, I mean you take shit in stride and you taught me when I'm upset just go kill hookers... In grand theft auto.

Estania you are a great mother (and MILF) and one of the sweetest people I've ever had to pleasure to call my friend. You seem like the one girl I can just lay in the same bed and talk for hours and we keep it G rated (No homo), and yes one day I will put a ring on it.


And the girl who won't be named, right now your mad and texting me asking me why I'm blocking you out of my life, but I see you moving on and that's all good, I want you happy and as childish as it seems I don't wanna be at your wedding, and if your as over me as you keep making it a point to tell me this shouldn't bother you at all.


Good Night Myspacer, I think I'm gonna go in at only 1:29 AM

[FlipKing]

He apparently said he was commiting suicide like 5 times before. No one believed he did it. Eventually a mod from the site did call the police. just much too late.

[§treet_§peed]

^ yeah by the time the cops got there he had been dead for quite some time. i dunno tho i used to eat Xanax bars like candy and mix them with liquor everyday for about a year straight and i never od. i guess i just got used to them cause i never lost track of time or forgot anything.

[FlipKing]

he took 3-4 other drugs too. They say you can see him stop breathing about 5-6

[§treet_§peed]

yeah he had roxanol (SP?) thats the generic form of oxycotton or mophine i can't remember and ultrame he said he had something else left but didn't say he had takin it.. either way i bet he was fucked outta his gord til he passed out..

[§treet_§peed]

either way i think some one still should of called the cops sooner. atleast he wasn't like that emo bitch that was posted on here a while ago. he actually did it...

[§treet_§peed]

hell this some i took 20 footballs an drunk a liter of crown by myself in under a hour... i was totally fucked up for the night and then when i went to sleep that night i woke up fucked lol

[§treet_§peed]

either way atleast he is at peace now.. R.I.P.

[§treet_§peed]

not changing the subject but i guess he did the same thing i intended to do. i wrote out letters to those closest. told my mom how to get my 8k out of my savings account to pay for whatever but i failed... i puked later on after trying... either way people really should seek help for this. im trying...if i can anyone can, i hate the fucking doctors today i think they are a bigger fucking waste of money and time than illegals.

[FlipKing]

I stand by my orginal paragraph

[§treet_§peed]

anyone ever herd this song? it speaks the truth


When we were young the future was so bright (whoa)
The old neighborhood was so alive (whoa)
And every kid on the whole damn street (whoa)
was gonna make it big in every beat.

Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn (whoa)
The kids are grown up but their lives are worn(whoa)
How can one little street
Swallow so many lives?

Chorus:
Chances thrown
Nothing's free
Longing for
What used to be
Still it's hard
Hard to see
Fragile lives
Shattered dreams

Go!

Jamie had a chance, well she really did (whoa)
Instead she dropped out and had a couple of kids (whoa)
Mark still lives at home cause he's got no job (whoa)
He just plays guitar, smokes a lot of pot

Jay committed suicide (whoa)
Brandon OD'd and died (whoa)
What the hell is going on?
Cruellest dream, reality

Chances blown, nothing's free
Longing for what used to be
Still, it's hard, hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

Go!

Chances blown, nothing's free
Longing for what used to be
Still, it's hard, hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

[§treet_§peed]

The lyrics are inspired by a visit Dexter Holland made to his old neighborhood, Garden Grove in Orange County, California. Seeing that most of his friends met tragedy (car accident, nervous breakdown), he wrote the song that details the ruined lives of a group of childhood friends. The four kids—Jamie, Mark, Jay, and Brandon—all had the potential to have extraordinary lives but each of them ended up throwing it away in a different fashion (Jamie "had a chance well she really did", but she dropped out of school, got pregnant and had a couple of kids, Mark stays home playing guitar and smoking a lot of pot, Jay committed suicide, Brandon "OD'd and died").

This fits well with the concept of the album: unpleasant realities of American life. In this case, children are promised they are growing up to a future of unlimited potential, but in reality, most of that potential is never realized.

[SicStang03]

They took all the videos down

[§treet_§peed]

they should to show some respect for the kid i mean i sorta feel bad for watching them now.. like i said R.I.P.

[GodSon]

Extremely sad.....guy must have been battling some serious demons.

R.I.P. Candy Junkie.

[OnURleft]

Anyone have a link to the video's even though they've been taken down from the original site?

[§treet_§peed]

alll the vid shows his him laying on the bed as the cops bust in.. nothing else

[FlipKing]

Please read aforemention paragraph. We all gotta go sometime, but that doesnt mean we should kill our selves and do that to our family.

[Friggintitsman]

http://www.mediatakeout.com/2008/283...age_board.html

[jR1_kS14]

I'm a member of that forum...

the site is not working today. I think the cops might be investigating it..

Someone had PMed a moderator about getting help to this guy. The mod was ROXIE and her response is that he was an attention whore just looking for more attention, and she blew it off. But he really is dead. I did some investigating with his myspace friends, and no one could reach him....

I've read some of his threads about taking a lot of pills. Sometimes he would take 20 xanax pills and make threads about it. he also got kicked out of his dads house. I think he has a wife and a kid too...

[FlipKing]

He also acted like he was going to commit suicide several times. Still a bitch for doing that to his familiy and friends