You are one stupid pissant fuck.
As for therapists, they are completley useless. Have some respect for yourself and spare yourself the trouble. Why would you take advice on life, from someone employed in a career that has the highest suicide rate? Those guys are a bunch of losers..seriously, who the heck makes a living out of hearing people BS and prescribing the same 3 pills all day and night.
My friend went to a mind. doc. once..he's never been the same after wards. little high school girl ditched him, he was gonna heal..till he went to a psychiatrist..then he started cutting himself and pondering suicide. Idiots tried to load him up full of pills.
Things will get better..they have too.