Honestly Brett... They say that time heals all wounds. I'll tell you right now, it's a lie... I lost my father about 7 years ago... He was my best friend, I thought I accepted it until I went to the grave site a few weeks ago. It almost killed me thinking back and realizing he was gone... I know this isn't what you wanted to hear/read... But it does get a little easier over time, just never completely heals. You will be happy again man. But just remember, never try to replace the happiness you had before because you will always seem to find fault as why you can't be happy... Be happy with the times you had, and find a new happiness...