Try being broke, that will curb your habit. I know what you are going through. It runs in my family, I went with a family member to AA meetings as a kid. I think that AA is FAR too religious and it shirks responsibility for your actions by making you think that you are "powerless." Let me tell you something. Alcoholism is NOT a disease. AIDS is a disease. You are NOT powerless. You just need help. There is a difference. Good luck to you. It's going to be difficult. It was for me to stop from becoming an alcoholic, so I can imagine it will be for you too. Occupy your mind with other things, video games, working on car, exercise, sex, reading. Get out of the house more, that helps to. Good luck to you sir.