This is heart breaking. Brett, there comes a time when sometimes we need to take the time to separate from the world when it seems like our luck is lost. I think you need to at least get out and go somewhere where there's peace of mind. At least take the time and remember all the things good and bad about her. Let all your anger out. But please don't sit in front of your PC screen any longer. Just cut it off for a few days if at all possible and take some time to yourself. Like I said, we are here for you in spirit while you're away. I think you should at least owe it to yourself.