Tonight I went to the YMCA to swim. After getting out of the pool, I took off my shorts and showered. I then proceeded to walk around the locker room, pretending to do various things, just as an excuse to be around the other men naked. I dried off and put just a t shirt on, then pretended to use the urinal, wash my hands, and get a plastic bag for my shorts, all with just a t shirt on and my penis out, which was hard by this time. Then I sat on a stool and slowly put my socks on, spreading my legs and such. To be honest, I was hoping someone would… take advantage of me. I am messed up.