What Makes You Cry?

[ahmonrah]

let's see,
#1) i shed a tear when i had to face the fact that my grandmother died and can't come back(well 2 years later)
she died of a massive stroke and heart attack while at work, the day after i talked to her. i was in the military at the time and when i found out i was informed by 2 patrolmen in my barracks who had been looking for me all day. i had a bad feeling the whole day and i avoided my barracks all day till midnight, cause i knew i had a bad feeling about a phone call. they stood walked me to the phone and stood by me as i answered and got the news. i swallowed my emotions, took it all in and chose to deny it was true for 2 years. well 2 years later mom calls me telling me that the wrongful death settlement came through from her death and asked if i wanted anything, i told her i wanted granny back, she said it can't happen she's gone, i finally was forced with that reality, hung up and cried. the next day i was amazed at what i told my mom on the phone. weird how even as adults, if a parental(i.eolder) loved one we've known our whole lives dies, we sometimes revert to kids again. weird.

#2)shed a tear when i was walking out the door, last bag in hand, of a house i spent 2 years in, with a person i spent the previous 7 years with. it was really bad 'cause the puppy i bought her in january 04 as a late c-mas gift was trying to get out of the door with me and was wimpering (he knew something was wrong), imagine hearing your now ex telling the puppy, "you can't go..."while crying, repeatedly cause he was really pushing hard to get out, then realize that, due to the situation at hand, those words werent completely meant for him.

#3) when i left the military 'cause i felt like i left all my buddies behind, like i abandoned them. i knew i was gonna miss the comraderie.

#4) the first time i watched the movie "ROSEWOOD" starring ving rhames and don cheadle. 'cause the pure anger and hurt that this movie was based on true events in a florida city of the same name.

#5) when i first seen the movie "JOHN Q" 'cause when denzel washington said, " i'm not gonna bury my son! he's supposed to bury me..." that's what my dad told me when i was younger and wilding out. and ultimately after seeing the anguish my friends' parents went through when she was murdered, i realized there that no parent is supposed to bury their children.