yeah, those were the few times that i've shed a tear. one thing i can tell people is that t obe true to who you are, you gotta know when to cry and when it's not needed. there's nothing wrong with a 230lb. man shedding a tear when he needs to. we are human after all and when things happen that call for a tear let it out then, cause if you dont , that emotion will manifest itself in other ways.
like when my grandmother died, the night i found out, i shut off all emotion. i didnt talk for the whole week leading to the funeral and for a week afterwards. i didnt cry at the funeral, or any other time for 2 whole years. during that time i emotionally distanced myself from my friends,family and my ex. 'cause in my head, if they died, i didnt want to feel that pain again. needless to say i wyld out during that time. smokin hella weed(though i know i'm not a weed smoker, but it dulled the pain) i drank like a sailor,(oh, i was a sailor!!) and fought like a battlecat, here and in pensacola. but, eventually i grieved like i should've and funny enough, at the end of the 2 years figurativly speaking, the sun shine came from behind the clouds, for the first time in a while
