I'm repeating what you said.................
if you think it's stupid and feel that "no one is literally this stupid" then perhaps we are taking a step in the right direction, you understanding that you're stupid. Admitting your ignorance is part of the healing process. I am happy that you have decided to take part in this journey. If there's anything i can do to assist you on your path back to reality, please let me know how i can help. That's what friends are for.