Some kid offed himself online today

[Friggintitsman]

There is a video that goes along with the story, but I don't think I will post it.

http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showth...hp?t=112065561

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<!-- icon and title --> The Note
<hr style="color: rgb(209, 209, 225);" size="1"> <!-- / icon and title --> <!-- message --> To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
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[Friggintitsman]

I for one have no sympathy for someone that commits suicide. I just think it's pretty messed up he decided to do it over the internet.

[redrumracer]

where is the vid

[Friggintitsman]

where is the vid

Check your reps

[Scotsman]

where is the vid

x2

[OnURleft]

where is the vid

hahahah

[TheGodfather]

Wtf is your sig?

[Friggintitsman]

Wtf is your sig?

It's from the movie Idiocracy

See it

[quickdodge®]

I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past.

Daamn. Not only, by his summarizing, is his life a complete failure, he even failed at taking it away. Damn.

But at least he finally succeeded at something. Later, QD.

[EJ25RUN]

Daamn. Not only, by his summarizing, is his life a complete failure, he even failed at taking it away. Damn.

But at least he finally succeeded at something. Later, QD.

No one is safe. HAHA

[DeeAOne]

Daamn. Not only, by his summarizing, is his life a complete failure, he even failed at taking it away. Damn.

But at least he finally succeeded at something. Later, QD.

i feel im going to hell now. you can make a joke on just about anything and it be hilarious.


QD made me lirl in a damn suicide thread...

[quickdodge®]

Daamn. Not only, by his summarizing, is his life a complete failure, he even failed at taking it away. Damn.

But at least he finally succeeded at something. Later, QD.

How the fuck is he going to sit and say he had a failed life? What kind of selfish bullshit is that? I don't know him in real life, but I clicked on the link to his thread and ran the cursor across his reputation bar. According to it, he "has a reputation beyond repute. Best rank possible!" Did he not know that you could look at the saying that coincides with your reps to give you life-altering and adjusting prophecies? I mean it didn't say "Ban him. From life." Motherfuck. Later, QD.

[Double_0_Rusty]

Damn........what a self-centered jerk.

[Friggintitsman]

Ok I will post the vid..... it isn't anything but the cops rolling up on his dead carcass

http://tinypic.com/player.php?v=espzsh&s=4

[Kevykev]

Obama has the vid.

[bowdown201]

damn

[SloWRX]

lmfao at the guy who recorded the video

[Friggintitsman]

lmfao at the guy who recorded the video

It was on JustinTV

So he recorded it on his web cam

[stephanie]

thats messed up

[Friggintitsman]

LMAO at this comment

http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showpo...1&postcount=13

[Scotsman]

LMAO at this comment

http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showpo...1&postcount=13

i lirl when i read that

[Friggintitsman]

i lirl when i read that

I probably would have said the same thing.

[Schugg]

what a dumbass, someone rep me the video. only thing im sad about is missing the video. sure i feel bad someone got so emo with their self that to took it to that extent, but there is other options.

[RL...]

lol enough said

[Fr33way]

Just dumb. No sympathy at all for someone like that.

[Double_0_Rusty]

That shit is serious. Dumb move on his part, and I only feel for his family and friends. Very sad.

[SloWRX]

hope he left atleast $6000 to cover the funeral... what a dumbass

[DrivenMind]

What kind of cop throws a dainty ass 2x4 for a corpse?

How did he die?

I'm assuming he overdosed on something since he's not hanging from the ceiling, and his grey matter isn't decorating his walls.

[SloWRX]

What kind of cop throws a dainty ass 2x4 for a corpse?

How did he die?

I'm assuming he overdosed on something since he's not hanging from the ceiling, and his grey matter isn't decorating his walls.

they didnt throw it at him, its just debris flying from the cops knocking down the door. atleast thats what the guy that recorded the video said lol

and yea, he OD

[FlipKing]

said he took like 8 bars of xanax. They watched him for like 8 hours until a mod got his info and called the cops to notify them of the OD. Kid doesnt move when the door is kicked in. You see the sun come up on the video. They are calling his cell and he isnt anwsering, but no news stories yet.

[FlipKing]

BTW I thought all black people were really happy b-c Obama got elected? lol

[Friggintitsman]

Oh boy you mean there is a full video out there?

[FlipKing]

Yes, I skipped through 5 pages at the time and skimmed through. Guy took screen shots 5 hours apart and the kid never moves. They say he stopped breathing about 5:30. Damn crinkles in his shirt are exactly the same

[TheGodfather]

Yes, I skipped through 5 pages at the time and skimmed through. Guy took screen shots 5 hours apart and the kid never moves. They say he stopped breathing about 5:30. Damn crinkles in his shirt are exactly the same

Link to vid?

[SloWRX]

http://www.justin.tv/clip/7b928d510bb0eb7c

[FlipKing]

Only vid I watched was the one that Friggen posted up. I dont have the link to the entire vid. Seems real though. idk.

[Psycho]

I feel bad for the kid, even if he did take his own life.

For all you criticizers; It's easy to speak poorly of someone else's actions, and say you could have done better. But you never know how it really is, until you walk a mile in their shoes.

[quickdodge®]

But you never know how it really is, until you walk a mile in their shoes.

Some of us may have. Me for example. I've probably walked more than a mile in his shoes. Later, QD.

[Friggintitsman]

Some of us may have. Me for example. I've probably walked more than a mile in his shoes. Later, QD.

QFT
People don't understand how bad life can get until they live in harsh times. Life is hard get over it. The point of a struggle is to get through it and live to fight the next battle. To sympathize for someone that is weak is beyond me. So he was 19 years old and barely even gave himself a chance in life and already he decided to kill himself. There are so many reasons why I just don't feel sorry for the guy.

[Psycho]

Some of us may have. Me for example. I've probably walked more than a mile in his shoes. Later, QD.

I don't know anything about your life, or his. So I can't really compare the two. But sometimes people just can't find the strength to pull through their problems anymore. Regardless of whether or not you agree with how the kid handled things, you should always have respect for the dead. We all gotta go sometime, death is the one sure thing life. I have respect for the kid, and I hope people will do the same for me when it's my time to go.