StreetHazard
09-24-2009, 04:45 PM
I know this is going to be alot to read BUT I promise you it will be well worth it. And if any of you know me on here you know its instant delivery!
I will preempt the below text with what happened to me in the dentist's office the other day.
I went in for a routine checkup and while waiting for the doctor in the waiting room I started chatting it up with the "front desk counter lady" she was an older lady, but before you know it I had her giggling like a school girl.
Then she just said "you know, I have a daughter that I think would be someone (like you) would really like"!
Now I have several visible piercings, dark clothes, tall (some think im kinda scary looking) So I am thinking this may or may not bode well.
but she's like "Do you want her email address? I cant wait to call her on the phone and tell her about you!"
Of course im like "alright fuck it, give me her address ill write her tonight"
We have been chatting with each other (on an unnamed social networking site) now for a couple of days, I have to admit I have been trying to scare her off a little bit, telling her shit like "I drink alot, and hang out with a bunch of ex-cons...you sure you want to hang out with me?", "I have pretty short temper if you start acting the fool, ill bounce you out at a redlight if you start getting lippy"
Today she sends me this long fucking email...I have copied and pasted it in its entirity for your reading fucking pleasure...this bitch is EPIC!
(all names and references have been removed, so you guys dont fuck this up for me)
__________________________________________________ ______
Outside the bedroom I believe (and I'm sure mom won't agree) that a man's place is as head of the household, he controls finances and most of all controls his woman. Only reference I can make is the 1950's. I believe in a romantic relationship that woman should respect their man and do as they are told, if of course her man treats her with compassion and truly cares about her feelings. I believe that when a man requests something from his woman she should fulfill his request, no questions asked, with a smile on her face because she knows she pleased him. I believe that the appreciation and pride he shows towards her is her biggest compliment. I feel his appreciation should not have exceed that of a soft smile, wink or "good job". I think in relationships women have brainwashed themselves to believe that he only 'loves' if he buys outrageous shit. Because of this our natural instincts have been nulled by such stupidity. If a man was truly pleased with his woman, his pride in her would out shine any diamond. Example, if my man asks me to get up and get him a beer, I would get up within seconds to fulfill his request, do it with a smile because although it's a simple task he asked ME to do it, and when I hand it to him and he gives me that little grin I'll know that he's happy I'm all his.
Did I lose you yet? Weird, I know.
In the bedroom I like to be treated the same way, as I'm sure you've seen. However I believe sex goes even further, we are after all animals correct? Yes love is good in the bedroom, but while you can have loving moments I don't believe you can "make love" or "fall in love" because of sex. I've never seen a monkey scream out "I love you" in the heat of the moment. Love is nice, but I believe love is gained over time and through many more levels, but I'm not going to get into all that. Men are dominate creatures plain and simple, so for me just like outside of the bedroom, a man has his place and a woman has hers. If in a relationship my man requests sex of any kind, it's given to him. I do it out of respect and appreciation. Now of course the more demanding he is on me the more it turns me on, but ultimately what my man wants he gets. One day perhaps we'll discuss this more if you'd like.
The sad part thus far is that I've not found a man brave enough to fully dominate me, so I am eagerly awaiting the one that will. Because my mind is my biggest sexual organ I'm more looking for someone into such things as giving assignments, speech restrictions, behavior modification and so on. Again, fulfilling his requests, respecting his authority and pleasing him will only turn me on more, but from the inside out. Example if you will - I cuss a lot, so if he told me not to do it then I would not. As you've seen I get a mouthy, and as you've done you've corrected me. Assignments are a bit different for me than the typical write 100 times or scrub the bathroom top and bottom. I believe that assignments should be more aimed towards my man kicking me in the ass to improve myself, which in turn pleases him. Example, I'm on a diet and have a set goal for myself. He would give me an assignment such as no fast food or eating nothing but veggies for the day or if he really loved me he'd demand I drink the required amount of water each day since that's my biggest headache, lol. Of course random assignments like the writing thing are cool, but I like things more geared towards us. Perfect example, you telling me to remind you about lunch on Thursday. I believe that creating assignments actually improve the sexual aspect of a relationship, because all I'd be doing is thinking of him, making him proud and poof there goes that thrill.
I could only imagine how fucked in the head you must think I am at this point, but I'll continue =)
Okay so making your woman cum is important for a guy, I dig it and it's appreciated of course. I'm not sure if there's a technical name for how my shit works, but I literally cum over and over while fucking. It's truly like one giant orgasm that has several peaks, but is consistently amazing. I'm not to sure what your history entails, but it's like being on X and the rolling is actually cumming...but all in all it's bad ass from start to finish. Now because I'm like that there's never a chance of me not getting off (Jesus loves me), so being used for his pleasure alone mentally enhances things for me. Being told I am and treated like his whore/slut/etc is my biggest 'fetish'. I like hearing that I'm not allowed to cum because it's not about me, I'm here for him. I mean don't get me wrong, there's a fine line between being mean and being an asshole. I don't like being treated as if I'm worthless and any bitch could be getting his dick, I want to feel that I'm the only one he's willing to use as his cum sponge because he's never been so proud of anyone as much as he is in me. I've never been a fan of lovey dovey bullshit either. Kissing of course is hot, eye contact is amazingly hot (especially when he's fucking you deep in the ass), but shit like "oh baby I love you so much" or cutesy lovie crap just makes me want to vomit. Don't bring me flowers, bring me a collar. Don't put on love songs, put on hardcore metal. I think you get what I'm saying.
I love his hands around my neck right when I'm gonna cum. I love having my head hang off the side of the bed while he throat fucks me. I love getting fucked doggie style with one hand smacking my ass, the other pulling my hair. I love his kisses and demands that I look at him while he's stretching my pussy with his fingers. I love being told not to cum while he fucks me harder. I love when he disciplines me for cumming. Yeah, I think you get all this too, so on to the next thing.
I want him to own my ass in every aspect possible. I want him to be secure in the fact that cheating disgusts me, and although he's not with me every waking moment that I would never disrespect him by allowing some man touch me. Now of course if he chooses to share me, then that's on him. He shares me because he's proud, I do what he asks because I know he does it out of pride and pleasure, not disrespect or to be hurtful. If he disapproves of me doing something, it's no longer done. If he smacks me for disrespecting him, I know he does it because I am a reflection of him (as you stated) and he needs to be confident in my ability to make him look good, so I need to be disciplined accordingly. When I give myself to him I give him my dedication, loyalty, trust, body and respect. Such a relationship I feel is gained over such things as assignments more so than sexual activities, it's earned, not given.
Jealousy as mentioned by text is probably another one of my biggest turn ons, as fucked up as that may seem. I guess if we use your term of 'property' then it should be protected and never ever touched by another without your knowledge and approval. I feel that when he shows his jealous side it proves that he cares and he is not willing to share. When he acts like he doesn't care, as in I'm talking to some dude and I don't get 20 questions, then it makes me feel like I'm worthless to him, I'm disposable, I'm trash. I suppose property is actually a good definition now that I think about it. If some stranger is walking around your house, you're going to ensure your house remains untouched. I'm sure 99.9% of humans would disagree with my love of jealousy, but it's those 00.1% that truly understand the importance of it.
As mentioned I've not had someone 'collar' me because I've yet to find someone I feel is up to the challenge or can even grasp who I am and what I'm looking for. Most men just hear the fact that I like to get tied up and they get overly eager, try to step up, I ask questions and they fail miserably so I dismiss them. It's amusing actually. Also because I've got so many different roles to play in life that require me to be dominate (mom, professional, etc) men can't seem to grasp that while I'm typically hard on the outer shell I'm just this little girl inside just dying to be comforted from time to time. Most "dom" men can't seem to get out of asshole mode long enough to look passed the sexual aspect of a D/s relationship. Just like your bike thing is your LIFEstyle, D/s is for me. I have much evolving to do, but isn't when we stop growing when we stop breathing?
Well darling I'm sure your eyes are all kinds of tired now from reading my novel, I apologize for making it so long and repetitive. If you think I'm a total mental case now and never want to speak to me again, I dig it and I promise not to have my mom link a live electrical wire to your dentists drill, lol.
Hope you enjoyed your evening,
XX
I will preempt the below text with what happened to me in the dentist's office the other day.
I went in for a routine checkup and while waiting for the doctor in the waiting room I started chatting it up with the "front desk counter lady" she was an older lady, but before you know it I had her giggling like a school girl.
Then she just said "you know, I have a daughter that I think would be someone (like you) would really like"!
Now I have several visible piercings, dark clothes, tall (some think im kinda scary looking) So I am thinking this may or may not bode well.
but she's like "Do you want her email address? I cant wait to call her on the phone and tell her about you!"
Of course im like "alright fuck it, give me her address ill write her tonight"
We have been chatting with each other (on an unnamed social networking site) now for a couple of days, I have to admit I have been trying to scare her off a little bit, telling her shit like "I drink alot, and hang out with a bunch of ex-cons...you sure you want to hang out with me?", "I have pretty short temper if you start acting the fool, ill bounce you out at a redlight if you start getting lippy"
Today she sends me this long fucking email...I have copied and pasted it in its entirity for your reading fucking pleasure...this bitch is EPIC!
(all names and references have been removed, so you guys dont fuck this up for me)
__________________________________________________ ______
Outside the bedroom I believe (and I'm sure mom won't agree) that a man's place is as head of the household, he controls finances and most of all controls his woman. Only reference I can make is the 1950's. I believe in a romantic relationship that woman should respect their man and do as they are told, if of course her man treats her with compassion and truly cares about her feelings. I believe that when a man requests something from his woman she should fulfill his request, no questions asked, with a smile on her face because she knows she pleased him. I believe that the appreciation and pride he shows towards her is her biggest compliment. I feel his appreciation should not have exceed that of a soft smile, wink or "good job". I think in relationships women have brainwashed themselves to believe that he only 'loves' if he buys outrageous shit. Because of this our natural instincts have been nulled by such stupidity. If a man was truly pleased with his woman, his pride in her would out shine any diamond. Example, if my man asks me to get up and get him a beer, I would get up within seconds to fulfill his request, do it with a smile because although it's a simple task he asked ME to do it, and when I hand it to him and he gives me that little grin I'll know that he's happy I'm all his.
Did I lose you yet? Weird, I know.
In the bedroom I like to be treated the same way, as I'm sure you've seen. However I believe sex goes even further, we are after all animals correct? Yes love is good in the bedroom, but while you can have loving moments I don't believe you can "make love" or "fall in love" because of sex. I've never seen a monkey scream out "I love you" in the heat of the moment. Love is nice, but I believe love is gained over time and through many more levels, but I'm not going to get into all that. Men are dominate creatures plain and simple, so for me just like outside of the bedroom, a man has his place and a woman has hers. If in a relationship my man requests sex of any kind, it's given to him. I do it out of respect and appreciation. Now of course the more demanding he is on me the more it turns me on, but ultimately what my man wants he gets. One day perhaps we'll discuss this more if you'd like.
The sad part thus far is that I've not found a man brave enough to fully dominate me, so I am eagerly awaiting the one that will. Because my mind is my biggest sexual organ I'm more looking for someone into such things as giving assignments, speech restrictions, behavior modification and so on. Again, fulfilling his requests, respecting his authority and pleasing him will only turn me on more, but from the inside out. Example if you will - I cuss a lot, so if he told me not to do it then I would not. As you've seen I get a mouthy, and as you've done you've corrected me. Assignments are a bit different for me than the typical write 100 times or scrub the bathroom top and bottom. I believe that assignments should be more aimed towards my man kicking me in the ass to improve myself, which in turn pleases him. Example, I'm on a diet and have a set goal for myself. He would give me an assignment such as no fast food or eating nothing but veggies for the day or if he really loved me he'd demand I drink the required amount of water each day since that's my biggest headache, lol. Of course random assignments like the writing thing are cool, but I like things more geared towards us. Perfect example, you telling me to remind you about lunch on Thursday. I believe that creating assignments actually improve the sexual aspect of a relationship, because all I'd be doing is thinking of him, making him proud and poof there goes that thrill.
I could only imagine how fucked in the head you must think I am at this point, but I'll continue =)
Okay so making your woman cum is important for a guy, I dig it and it's appreciated of course. I'm not sure if there's a technical name for how my shit works, but I literally cum over and over while fucking. It's truly like one giant orgasm that has several peaks, but is consistently amazing. I'm not to sure what your history entails, but it's like being on X and the rolling is actually cumming...but all in all it's bad ass from start to finish. Now because I'm like that there's never a chance of me not getting off (Jesus loves me), so being used for his pleasure alone mentally enhances things for me. Being told I am and treated like his whore/slut/etc is my biggest 'fetish'. I like hearing that I'm not allowed to cum because it's not about me, I'm here for him. I mean don't get me wrong, there's a fine line between being mean and being an asshole. I don't like being treated as if I'm worthless and any bitch could be getting his dick, I want to feel that I'm the only one he's willing to use as his cum sponge because he's never been so proud of anyone as much as he is in me. I've never been a fan of lovey dovey bullshit either. Kissing of course is hot, eye contact is amazingly hot (especially when he's fucking you deep in the ass), but shit like "oh baby I love you so much" or cutesy lovie crap just makes me want to vomit. Don't bring me flowers, bring me a collar. Don't put on love songs, put on hardcore metal. I think you get what I'm saying.
I love his hands around my neck right when I'm gonna cum. I love having my head hang off the side of the bed while he throat fucks me. I love getting fucked doggie style with one hand smacking my ass, the other pulling my hair. I love his kisses and demands that I look at him while he's stretching my pussy with his fingers. I love being told not to cum while he fucks me harder. I love when he disciplines me for cumming. Yeah, I think you get all this too, so on to the next thing.
I want him to own my ass in every aspect possible. I want him to be secure in the fact that cheating disgusts me, and although he's not with me every waking moment that I would never disrespect him by allowing some man touch me. Now of course if he chooses to share me, then that's on him. He shares me because he's proud, I do what he asks because I know he does it out of pride and pleasure, not disrespect or to be hurtful. If he disapproves of me doing something, it's no longer done. If he smacks me for disrespecting him, I know he does it because I am a reflection of him (as you stated) and he needs to be confident in my ability to make him look good, so I need to be disciplined accordingly. When I give myself to him I give him my dedication, loyalty, trust, body and respect. Such a relationship I feel is gained over such things as assignments more so than sexual activities, it's earned, not given.
Jealousy as mentioned by text is probably another one of my biggest turn ons, as fucked up as that may seem. I guess if we use your term of 'property' then it should be protected and never ever touched by another without your knowledge and approval. I feel that when he shows his jealous side it proves that he cares and he is not willing to share. When he acts like he doesn't care, as in I'm talking to some dude and I don't get 20 questions, then it makes me feel like I'm worthless to him, I'm disposable, I'm trash. I suppose property is actually a good definition now that I think about it. If some stranger is walking around your house, you're going to ensure your house remains untouched. I'm sure 99.9% of humans would disagree with my love of jealousy, but it's those 00.1% that truly understand the importance of it.
As mentioned I've not had someone 'collar' me because I've yet to find someone I feel is up to the challenge or can even grasp who I am and what I'm looking for. Most men just hear the fact that I like to get tied up and they get overly eager, try to step up, I ask questions and they fail miserably so I dismiss them. It's amusing actually. Also because I've got so many different roles to play in life that require me to be dominate (mom, professional, etc) men can't seem to grasp that while I'm typically hard on the outer shell I'm just this little girl inside just dying to be comforted from time to time. Most "dom" men can't seem to get out of asshole mode long enough to look passed the sexual aspect of a D/s relationship. Just like your bike thing is your LIFEstyle, D/s is for me. I have much evolving to do, but isn't when we stop growing when we stop breathing?
Well darling I'm sure your eyes are all kinds of tired now from reading my novel, I apologize for making it so long and repetitive. If you think I'm a total mental case now and never want to speak to me again, I dig it and I promise not to have my mom link a live electrical wire to your dentists drill, lol.
Hope you enjoyed your evening,
XX