Leisa's Favorite Time Of The Year

[Brett]

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You know.... Every year about this time, Leisa would come alive, she would just get this glow about her because she would know Thanksgiving was here, and she truley loved the holidays.... this is the time of year she lived for. Tomorrow I would have had to bring down the tree, bring down the lights for outside the house, etc... and we would have spent the afternoon getting the house just the way she wants for Christmas.

I dont know honestly how I will feel tomorrow when I wake up and face the first real holiday without her. The past 2 weeks I have been so strong for her memory, I havent cried and I have been laughing so much more but yesterday as the day began to come to an end, The fact that I will go through the holidays without her is killing me all over again.

Tomorrow I will be at my bosses house with her and her family, so I wont be alone... but then next week my birthday comes up, another day she really loved, sometimes more than me...lol, then Christmas, New Years...... all without what matters to me most, Leisa.

:(

[PhatbacK]

I cant even imagine how hard that has to be for you brett and I am so sorry. But the last few weeks I have been on here on and off and I have noticed just over IA that you have gotten yourself together and tried to take the next step and stay positive and upbeat......thats alot harder than most people think...I know Id be a mess!! But you know Leisa WILL be with you tomorrow...tryin to comfort you and letting you know that she still wants you to do all those same things! I think you should still decorate and keep the tradition alive! Maybe it will bring you some peace and comfort

[Brett]

Yeah the past 2 weeks I have really tried to get back to who I was and start to enjoy life again, and yeah I have been doing good with that, even though I think about her a million times a day, I know she would hate me hurting all the time, so for her and for my sanity I have tried to get back into life again, but as the holidays come and I face it without her, It kind of knocks me back down a bit.... But I will get up and dust myself off and continue to fight to live this life everyday. I owe that to her :)

[Sammich]

*clicks x*

jk homie

you will make it thru this holiday season better than u expect, keep posting ur threads up so u can get whatever u need off ur chest, ur lost is a big one and im pretty sure leisa woulda gave u the BJ of a lifetime on ur BDAY lol

[Brett]

^^ You know man, that just made me laugh so damn hard, Thanks brotha!!

[Sammich]

LOL AS LONG AS I CAN MAKE U LAUGH ABOUT IT MAN, JUST THINK OF ALL THE GOOD TIMES YALL TWO CORNBALLS HAD TOGETHER AND REMINISCE HOMIE

[Brett]

Yeah just wish I had more than memories, nah mean?

[Sammich]

I FIGADEAL U...I WAS GONA SAY SOMETHING FOR THE FUNNY, BUT I THINK IT MAY HAVE BEEN OUTA HAND, SO...BE EASY HOME SLICE

[Brett]

You know its all good brotha :D

[JackMaster]

I dont know you, but I think you should still set up the house, Xmas tree, lights etc. She'll notice it.

[Tech5]

Holidays are great!

[DJ Maestro]

Next week Brett's going to be an even older man.:taun: :D

[Brett]

^^ God I hate you!! LOL

I am thinking of doing the lights outside for her but havent decided yet, But the tree I just cant see doing because no one but me will see it, and nothing will be under it anyways, But I dunno... she was so good at this stuff, Me... not so good at it.

[DJ Maestro]

^^ God I hate you!! LOL

I am thinking of doing the lights outside for her but havent decided yet, But the tree I just cant see doing because no one but me will see it, and nothing will be under it anyways, But I dunno... she was so good at this stuff, Me... not so good at it.

I wub j00 too Brett. (only slightly homo) :lmfao:

[Brett]

Thats not gay shit, thats man shit!! LOL

[Sammich]

Man Law #157 reads:

"Man shalt not confess love for another man, even if its on the intrawebs"

[DJ Maestro]

Man Law #157 reads:

"Man shalt not confess love for another man, even if its on the intrawebs"

But we are not on the intrawebs, we are on the interwebz.

Teh interwebz = serious bidness.

Teh intrawebs = fuck yo couch!

:goodjob:

[Brett]

FUCK YO COUCH NIGGA!!!

[Sammich]

But we are not on the intrawebs, we are on the interwebz.

Teh interwebz = serious bidness.

Teh intrawebs = fuck yo couch!

:goodjob:

teh intarwerbz = fuck you nigga

[Sammich]

FUCK YO COUCH NIGGA!!!

ur face...ill fuk it cuz its so soft..like muh leather:lmfao:

[Brett]

GROSS!! LOL

[Sammich]

BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

[Brett]

But anyways.... This is her time of the year... I miss her with every breath I take

[DJ Maestro]

Brett, keep the memories you do have of her alive and strong. Enjoy the holidays because you know that is what she would want you to do. :goodjob:

[Brett]

As much as she would want me to enjoy them, there is no way I will be able to, she is what made the holidays special, her love for life and the holidays is what made it great. Now its me in the house by myself with no reason to get into them this year, ya know?

[DJ Maestro]

Hopefully you can find something to smile about during the holidays. I can only imagine what it must feel like to have lost someone so close to you escpecially during this time of year. I'll be praying for you bro. Happiness will find its way into your life again soon. Keep your head held high. :goodjob:

[Brett]

I sure hope it does nah mean?